After writing a song called “Broken” on New Year’s Day 2020, I committed myself to write a new song every month. In February, I wrote “Keep It Simple, Stupid”, a satire on the myopic simplicity of our political system and its ties to the competitive model of “good versus bad” that has been ingrained into our religious ideologies. In March, I wrote “Song For The People” as an anthem to our solidarity should we be able to move beyond our differences and realize ourselves as One with all of the other people trying to find their way through this society we are building.
In April, one month into the pandemic, I wrote “I Dunno Yet”. A year and a half later, I still don’t know. I don’t know how we created the virus we did, whether it was created in a lab or if its the karmic repercussions of people having sex with bats. I don’t know if it was released into the population intentionally or if it was just another blender of humanity. I don’t know if I should trust the historically untrustworthy or plunge into the rabbithole of things that I may just be better off not knowing.
But I do know that there are a lot of things that I don’t know about how the world operates as I scurry around within it, but I still manage to enjoy my scurrying. There exist things in the cosmos and in dimensions beyond my understanding that occur in spite of my awareness of them. I prefer to share the things that I know something about and keep my ignorance to myself.
Despite all of the things that I don’t know, the impetus behind the success of my scurrying lies in the simple act of having faith. I’ve managed to pare down a lot of the beliefs that a lot of other people still have faith in, I don’t give much credence to most religious ideologies and regard most characterizations of what’s often referred to as “God” as little more than charicatures. Because I have found comfort amidst all of the things I don’t know, I do know that I’ve never had to earn a single breath that has ever been given to me since I’ve been on this planet, and I have found peace in having faith in the mystery of how they have been provided along with every other thing I have ever experienced for as far back as I can remember. I just have faith that whatever has provided the reality I exist in will keep providing as long as I provide for it.
So the song asks a lot of questions to which I don’t know the answers, regarding topics of how long what we’re going through will endure, if we the people will ever fully realize what that means and guide our own evolution consciously, whether or not we’ll just give ourselves over to being mindless consumers and servants of the wealthy, or whether or not we’ll realize our power to co-create the kind of world we actually want to live in. But the chorus states what I do know… or at least points to it…
I don’t know what I don’t know, this I know
The answers you seek are in the words you speak, this I know
There is so much mystery beyond just you and me, this I know
And there is so much beyond the great beyond of what we think we know
So this song became the second song in the first set as an apology for not having all of the answers and an appreciation for having the answers to the questions that matter the most to me. While I may never have all of the answers to the questions that come to my mind, even bathed in ignorance, I’m still glad to have faith in the mystery.
